Cold, fed up and miserable

Im cold, fed up and miserable today and I have no idea why.  Temperatures are higher than they have been for ages and the sun is out but still I feel the same.  Im cooking mackerel in chilli marinade and all left over veggies, a mix of peppers, mushrooms my one home grown chilli lol, peas and spring onions and I will put this over the mackerel when I cook it in the oven then  I have little new potatoes for the final finishing touch. Im hoping lovely food will cheer me up.  I also have the washing machine on and am dying two pairs of combats which have faded beyond belief but they are so comfy and I cant bear to part with them so I have some black dye and am trying to see if I can improve them, at the moment Im worried it will ruin my washing machine, on the packet is says not ... so I am keeping my fingers crossed but Im still scared ..... maybe it would have been easier to just buy some more, but as you may know Im still trying with my shopping ban.  Not only have I enough clothes I cant afford to buy any more, money is so tight, and hubbys job is hanging inthe balance but it will definitely be finishing soon grrrr.  I ebayed to get some more money too but although I put stuff on and some of it sold it was a waste of bloody time, my paypal account looks fine but when I actually worked it all out properly I probably only made a couple of pounds so really not worth the effort at all by the time you take costs and postage off and the effort of loading it all up and stuff .... still it was worth trying.  Hmm I just got up to have a look at my washing machine it doesnt look particularly clean to me and whats in it doesnt look particularly well dyed oh ffs that will just finish me off hahahahahaha.  Oh well c'est la vie I suppose.  Mind you I might be cheered up if I looked like a picture I saw of Eva Mendes today .... I can dream hahahahaha.