Catch up time

Im a bit behind with posting there has been so much going on.  One of the weddings was on Saturday and it all went well, except it was so cold, there was no heating in the marquee and to be honest my feet were like icicles so I kept going into the bar of the pub to warm up..... it was so cosy in there.  I wore a sleeveless turquoise dress with a black shrug but I took another longer cardigan as well and I had to wear that on top, my legs were bare with high heels brrrrrr.  For the next wedding this saturday am gonna possibly wear thick tights lolol.  Hubby and I stayed overnight and had a lovely cosy room in the attic, I really should have taken a pic, bed was oh so comfy it puts my one at home to shame ... I definitely need a new mattress.  When I can and if I like the pics that were taken Ill add them on here but I really need to vet them first hehehehe. 

Yesterday I went to the Heart Hossie to get all my results from the recent tests.  I wasnt too shocked with what I heard although I was disappointed and am certainly not looking forward to the next few months.  Apparantely my heart has been trying to repair itself but of course it doesnt realise its making it worse, and it is replacing parts with fatty tissue which of course makes the heart wall immobile.  So now not only do I have a thin floppy heart wall on the left I also have parts of it thick and immobile and its not a good mix.  The electrical wiring system within the heart has now gone completely bonkers its like 2 cars at traffic lights in a one way system.  Car number one starts the short journey but decides to do a detour but it really doesnt know where it is going so keeps making odd turns, by now the traffic lights have gone green for car number two so that has already started and of course the inevitable happens there is a bit of a collision hehehehe.  All in all they are recommending that I have a Defibrillator implanted and also whats called a Biventricular Pacemaker, but they wont turn the Bivent on just yet.  Apparantely if they dont put in that third wire eventually they wont be able to put it in if my heart keeps thickening cos it will be like a electrical wire hitting a brick wall ...... absolutely useless.  But at least I will have the insurance policy of the defibrillator so if things do go majorly wrong it will stop it ..... I hope hehehehehe.  Anway I am scared, cos I also have to have more meds and I will be out of action for a while no driving nothing, but in the long run it will help me .... again I hope.  Im now waiting for them to ring or write to me letting me know whats what, although that has all been recommended they still have to put it to the Main Man to actually say yeh its all gonna happen.  So again its a waiting game.  I just want it over and done with as soon as possible so I can stop worrying about it all and get on with things again.  Today Im really tired and dont feel all that good but I think thatsa combination of the long day and night at the wedding and a long day yesterday going to London to see the Cardiologist. 

Other than that nothing much has happened that has been enough for me anyway, although like I say its wedding number two this saturday coming, omg I wish peeps would stop getting married  hehe !!!