Change

Im still around the internet but just havent felt like posting much recently, things have been happening and Ive been thinking a lot about everything.  Healthwise Im fine I just think Im in a bit of 'overload' at the moment and I needed to sort out a few personal issues so consequently I lost the momentum to post.  Ive also decided I need to spend less time on the internet just mooching around and I need to focus on other stuff.  I have been so lazy with my ebaying and I need to get that back together,(yes I know thats internet stuff  lol but its money making internet stuff lol) and I also have let my language speaking bite the dust.  I used to speak both french and spanish reasonably well but I can hardly even string sentences together now.  I have no one to talk to so I can have a conversation in the language.  Hubbys friend is portugese/south african but thats no good cos I would have to learn portuguese hahaha and I cant be bothered to try and learn another language from scratch.  I also need to get back to cooking properly and healthily, I always used to make my own bread every other day but I seem to have stopped that too. I do cook and I do cook reasonably healthy but just not like I used to.  I dont honestly know whats happened I feel like I am in 'no mans land' and Ive been floundering.  I dont know what I really want any more and where I want it hehehehe.  I do know what I dont want though thats for sure.  Things need to change, and only I can try to change them.