Watered down me

Does anyone ever feel they are 'watered down' versions of themselves from time ago.  I doubt if it would apply to younger people but it seems as we get older, we become different people.  It may be just me I dont know. I understand  life experiences and stuff change us and thats fine and I know bodily we change, thats fine .... well sort of  hehehehe. Its more the personality.  Maybe people dont change.  Maybe its just me. I just woke up this morning and thought I must try and get back that person that was once me and I dont know why she has gone.  I used to be the person dancing all night  in a nightclub, going to rock concerts, wearing more eclectic clothes, different makeup and really spikey hair and that was when I was 40 lol.  In the last few years I have sort of become different, perhaps I am trying to conform to the not looking like 'mutton dressed up as lamb' look.  But what does it matter.  Cant we wear what we want, look what we want.  Who says we have to be a certain way, how boring is that and what right has anyone else got to dictate how we as people have got to look and behave as we get older. I have said before that I look in a mirror and see my mum looking back at me and that is true but I also feel I have lost me.  Im gonna try damn hard to get me back cos life is definiely becoming boring,  I know in my case things are a bit restricted, I dont want to dance all night in a nightclub, and I wouldnt be able to if I tried, but I used to dance in my front room and sing at the top of my voice and I never do that now, I very rarely put my music on loud.  I used to like the odd cigarette with a cup of coffee listening to the music and now obviously I dont smoke and I only drink one ... yes one cup of coffee a day ffs.  I used to go to work with music playing loud in my car too now its like a quiet tinkle in the background when I go out and I seem to have moved from real riveting music to mellow background noise grrrr whats happened to me.  I know we dont want in your face stuff all the time but hell what has gone wrong where in the hell did I disappear to? Female wise my idol used to be Annie Lennox and I used to aspire to be just like her, I still love her, I think she has aged perfectly.  Music wise I used to like Led Zepellin, Rory Gallagher then over the years it changed but it was always pretty noisy music.  I was never one of those dance around your handbags type I was always there doing my wavy armed hippie type dances hehehehehe not caring what anyone else thought and with not a care in the world.  I need to regain some of my old self, I never want to become the old me I just want some of it to reappear and I really need to stop trying to be what other people want me to be or even expect me to be.  This is now Day one of the revival of old me.