To be honest at the moment I dont know whether I am coming or going, I so desperately want a day to myself to catch up on all my own stuff. I wont be able to go volunteering tomorrow and I havent been since before Christmas due to my mums ill health. Have had the doc out to her today again and it seems that the chest infection still hasnt cleared up, they have taken bloods, done a complete examination and given another course of antibiotics and will see her again next Thursday. On Monday I have to take her to the hospital for a chest xray and then next Thursday I have to take her to the surgery rather than them come out for a home visit so that they can do some more assessing. Unfortunately mum is a chronic asthmatic, diabetic, has osteoporosis, arthritis plus she has a few other things going on and has previously had cancer which thankfully has never come back. Wednesday I have arranged for her to have an assessment for certain things to do with the house as yesterday I went to a drop in centre thats gives advice etc for the elderly and I now realise that there is other things that she has been struggling to do but putting on a brave face about it to me. Whether she will be entitled to them I do not know but its worth a try as I know now for certain that if my Mums health continues to either stay the same or decline over the next few years I cannot cope on my own with her as things are at the moment and that is not meant to sound nasty just me being practical. Im not even sure how Im going to get her for her chest xray as she cannot stand to do her teeth so how she will get up her steep drive to my car I have no idea .... we will wait and see what happens but its got to be done. Hopefully in the next few days her strength will improve a bit, at least she can dress herself now although it is an effort for her so we are heading in the right direction yay. Friday Im off to the Crematorium to look in the book of Rememberance as it will be 29years since my Dad died and the first time ever that mum has not gone. My friend D had a good idea and that is I will look at the book as I always do in the Chapel of Rememberance and Mum will light a candle for my Dad at home alongside the picture that she keeps on her fireplace and I can get some flowers to put there too. Oh and I just thought maybe I could take a pic of the page in the book too, hmm I will have to stick a post it on mself to remember hahahaha, wonder if my forehead will be a good place to put it!
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