Yesterday I attended my 'nutter' appointment hehehe, supposed to be cognitive behavioural therapy. Well all I did was talk about myself and what has happened in the past, Ive done all that before and really dont need to do it again Ive dealt with it and put it all behind me and no amount of talking about it will change anything. I feel fine with regards to my past but obviously I realise it has some bearing on the present. My doctor wanted me to go as I have had anxiety and panic for approximately 15 years but it does affect how my heart behaves. Over the years have learnt to deal with it, sometimes it moreorless disappears and then it can come back with an absolute vengeance. When I lived in Spain it disappeared except for just two occasions and it was brilliant, as soon as I came back to the UK plop it landed back with me hehehehehe. Anyway like I said I went to my appointment yesterday, I could tell them how to make it go away lol. Fix my heart, take off a few years, be thinner, my debts get paid off, number 2 son to be less grumpy, and hubby to work less hours and get the same money hehehehe. But it just aint gonna happen. Life goes on and we deal with things like they are. I just wish I had a little switch that when I felt the panic coming I could just turn it off, that would be oh so good, or maybe I should just go live on a desert island!!
This is a really good little film lasting just about a minute, I think its so clever. What would you take to a desert island to get rid of hehehe?
2 comments:
As someone who also has experience of anxiety and panic attacks I can sympathise. CBT didn't actually work for me but it does for a lot of people. It's funny you should say that it wasn't so bad in Spain...ie worse in the UK. I have to say that I'm the same...since I moved to Turkey I hardly ever experience attacks now. It's the difference in pace of life I reckon.
I don't know what I'd take to a desert island to get rid of...hmmm I'll have to have a think about that one!
I reckon it is Ayak, its also like you can reinvent yourself a little bit, I dont mean in a major way but its like wiping the slate clean so to speak. Dont know if that makes any sense.
Im thinking what I would take to throw away as well lol xx
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